I have found a lot lately I have had to say, "It's okay. It's life."
What I then do is finish it in my mind saying, "and mine SUCKS".
I am so tired of this all. I have hit my breaking point yet no one seems to care and it doesn't matter.
I am just so done with it all.
Insurance crap.
Health crap.
Unemployment crap.
House remodel crap.
Death sounds good about right now but I can't afford to die.
Ugh!!
Thursday, March 28, 2013
Monday, February 25, 2013
Musical thoughts
Intussusception.
A word I hoped I would only use in my past. Yet here it is again in my present and probably in my future as well.
The word haunts me and my body.
I am at my breaking point.
My body.
My house.
Everything is falling apart.
The words, "I need thee every hour" keep coming to my mind as I just keep thinking "what is in store for me?" "is there a plan?" "how much more do I have to endure before I see a bright spot?"
I have been racked over the coals and I wanted to come out shining like a diamond but I fear I will just be ash.
"Oh I need thee every hour oh Gracious Lord. No tender love like thine can peace afford. I need thee oh I need thee...oh bless me now my Savior I come to thee!"
A word I hoped I would only use in my past. Yet here it is again in my present and probably in my future as well.
The word haunts me and my body.
I am at my breaking point.
My body.
My house.
Everything is falling apart.
The words, "I need thee every hour" keep coming to my mind as I just keep thinking "what is in store for me?" "is there a plan?" "how much more do I have to endure before I see a bright spot?"
I have been racked over the coals and I wanted to come out shining like a diamond but I fear I will just be ash.
"Oh I need thee every hour oh Gracious Lord. No tender love like thine can peace afford. I need thee oh I need thee...oh bless me now my Savior I come to thee!"
Monday, February 4, 2013
Not typical
I have come to realize I am NOT the typical woman. While I love cute purses, clothes, shoes, etc...I love MORE construction supplies. I would MUCH rather shop at Home Depot, Lowe's or a home fixer up place than Macy's, Dillards or really any store in a mall. I can't recall the last mall I walked in; however, Lowe's or Home Depot I beg Ben to take me to or go with me to weekly.
Even when I don't have money I love walking the aisles and coming up with ideas of what I want and how I could make it. Today is a day I would LOVE LOVE LOVE to have lots of extra money so I could go to Home Depot or Lowe's and get some lumber to help complete the storage closet downstairs. I also have an AWESOME desk drawn up and can't wait for the money and my new work position to start so I have weekends to work with Ben on making it **Squeals** (Yes I am that big of a nerd in it all!)
I started deep cleaning the girls room. Lyse has had soooo much in her room she just can't keep it clean. When your living space has too many things, you organize and remove. That is just what I did in Lyse's room. After cleaning for a bit, I found her dresser needed fixed. Out came the hammer, screw driver and wood glue. 20 minutes later it was fixed and I was in heaven. I LOVE fixing things. I love re-finishing old. I would have made a GREAT carpenter as a trade. I would revel in going to work and creating something.
Now don't confuse this with the girly craftiness. I am not very crafty at all. If you want to know the truth, Ben is MUCH more crafty and creative with things like that then me. I much prefer working with wood and creating something beautiful or something that helps organize. I feel productive when I make shelves or create something out of wood.
I look forward to having $40 to go and buy lumber to make my finish my closet downstairs, the shelves in the garage and I am sure I could come up with some other things needed as well.
I guess I am just not the typical girl cause I am the one begging Ben to start the next fun project! Isn't Ben lucky?!? :)
Even when I don't have money I love walking the aisles and coming up with ideas of what I want and how I could make it. Today is a day I would LOVE LOVE LOVE to have lots of extra money so I could go to Home Depot or Lowe's and get some lumber to help complete the storage closet downstairs. I also have an AWESOME desk drawn up and can't wait for the money and my new work position to start so I have weekends to work with Ben on making it **Squeals** (Yes I am that big of a nerd in it all!)
I started deep cleaning the girls room. Lyse has had soooo much in her room she just can't keep it clean. When your living space has too many things, you organize and remove. That is just what I did in Lyse's room. After cleaning for a bit, I found her dresser needed fixed. Out came the hammer, screw driver and wood glue. 20 minutes later it was fixed and I was in heaven. I LOVE fixing things. I love re-finishing old. I would have made a GREAT carpenter as a trade. I would revel in going to work and creating something.
Now don't confuse this with the girly craftiness. I am not very crafty at all. If you want to know the truth, Ben is MUCH more crafty and creative with things like that then me. I much prefer working with wood and creating something beautiful or something that helps organize. I feel productive when I make shelves or create something out of wood.
I look forward to having $40 to go and buy lumber to make my finish my closet downstairs, the shelves in the garage and I am sure I could come up with some other things needed as well.
I guess I am just not the typical girl cause I am the one begging Ben to start the next fun project! Isn't Ben lucky?!? :)
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
Paradise Vacation
AMAZING! That is what I need to say first and foremost. It had been so long since we had a good long vacation. On top of that, St. Thomas and St. John are such beautiful and amazing islands. It was so relaxing. I don't have enough good to say about it!
We left for St. Thomas on Wednesday January 09. We originally planned to leave on the Thursday night, the 10th but the flight looked better on the 9th so we headed out. We came back on Tuesday January 15th. Ben, Katy, Lyse, Jana, Dave, Tayler, Brookie, Dustin, Mom, Dad and I were the ones that went. It was sooooo fun!
This was a last minute planned vacation. Jana got a vacation rental in St. Thomas and Jetblue flies there so I didn't have to pay a cent to get there. We had so much fun. We didn't get to our room until almost 6 pm on Thursday night, so we honestly did not do much that night. Our big adventure was finding a baby rat in the POOL when we got there. The kids all jumped in the large, beautiful pool. They said, "There is something in the Pool. It's a mouse. It's a dead mouse." I looked in and saw the baby rat swimming away and said, "Nope it's alive" as all the kids were screaming and running out of the water! Ben got the pool skimmer and grabbed the rat. He was kind (? I guess?) and released the little critter by the beach.
Now I was thinking, "cleanliness"? But honestly that little rodent was the only unclean thing I saw in our resort. It was VERY well kept and there were even some cute, kind and well cared for cats that ran around the premises (I am sure to keep those rodents under control).
Our rooms were amazing! We had the most amazing views from our patio. This is what we got to wake up to each morning! Down a few stairs and we were at an amazing bay on the Caribbean Coast.
Friday we spent the day at the beach outside our room. After a while, Jana and I went and picked up our parents from the airport. Ben, Dave and all the kids stayed at the resort to play. Mom and Dad's luggage was lost so we ended up being at the airport longer than planned (about 2-3 hours). We didn't get back to the room until later that evening. Ben, Dustin and Lyse were all snorkeling down in the bay. They were able to see many fun conche shells as well as a sting ray. They loved it.
Saturday we spent the day at Coki beach. For Christmas Ben and I got an amazing tree hammock. That hammock was hung on many beaches and fully enjoyed! At Coki Beach I was rather sick, so most of my day was spent wrapped in a blanket in the hammock on the beach enjoying watching Ben, the girls and my family play in the water. It was rather relaxing for being sick! :)
I did go out and snorkel with Lyse, Ben, Katy and Dustin for a bit. It was fun and the water was warm. Lyse LOVED snorkeling. Wow that kid loved to snorkel and she really loved the snorkel power units my parents have to pull you around in the water. At one point she took off on one and was clear out in the bay with the unit. Scared me to death (and every other adult) and it was my fault cause I told her to take it and go out to her dad. She just headed the wrong way and rather than heading to Ben on the side of the bay, she headed straight out into the bay.
The day at Coki was amazing but cut short when a storm blew in, we decided to pack up and head out. We stopped at fruit stands and purchased some yummy mangos, bananas and papaya to make fruit smoothies and then headed back to the room. The kids went down to the pool for some more swimming and I took a nap then helped with dinner.
The Sunday I REALLY REALLY wanted to go to St. John Island. I finally convinced everyone it would be amazing and worth it so we took the 5 minute drive to Red Hook to catch the barge to take the minivan (that technically seats 7 but had 11 in it) over to St. John. I said I would pay for it to go across so I stressed BIG time it would be like $100 or more but it ended up being $45 total and we didn't have to pay for the people so it was just over $4 per person to go across to St. John. My dad and Jana also helped pay and so it was only $20.
St. John was so worth it! It was GORGEOUS!!!!!! We went to Trunk's Bay Beach and it was the most beautiful beach I have EVER been on. I had been really sick all day Saturday but I could NOT resist the water on Trunk's! It was absolutely AMAZING! It was warm water, beautiful sand. It had pretty good snorkeling. I guess the waves were bigger than normal but the big waves were fun! We spent hours out in the water playing. As we were playing, a man with a paddle board came by. Dustin asked if he could ride and the guy actually handed over his paddle board for the kids and Ben to play on! They were in Heaven!! Ben had always wanted to paddle board so I was so grateful he go to do it for a bit!
Trunk's Bay was my favorite little piece of paradise! I could spend days and days and DAYS there!!!
That night as we got the car back on the barge, I looked out over the sun setting sky and I saw a HUGE sting ray jump out of the water and flap it's wings. I was amazing and yelled for everyone to look as the beautiful creature jumped out a second time. A funny islander man said, "Stupid Eagle Ray thinks he can fly like a bird". LOL made me laugh and I was in awe at the beautiful, amazing creature I was able to see. I seriously at first thought it was a dolphin because it was so large. I am so grateful I got to see that moment. It just made my day!!
Monday once again I was really sick after spending the day in the water. We went to Meghan's Bay (another beautiful beach). The family all loved spending time in the water jumping the large waves. I avoided the water because I just was not feeling well. Lyse and Katy earlier in the day told me they would not be putting on swimming suits because they "hated the beach and did not want to swim". It took them being at the beach about 2 minutes to come up and ask where the swimsuits were at and how they could get in the water! Silly girls! I loved watching everyone play and wished I could be out there. As the group was getting ready to go I thought, "that's it. This is once in a lifetime, I am going out to enjoy for a bit". I was not going to get my hair wet or ride the waves like they were. Lyse was actually riding Ben's back while riding the waves. He was her "surf board" and she loved it! What an amazing Daddy he is!!!! As I climbed in the warm water I wished I didn't feel so cruddy and could have enjoyed this all day. I managed to play in the water for a long time. As I turned my back to watch Ben, Lyse and Dustin ride a wave, a large, LARGE wave broke over me and Katy. I was fully wet and lying sprawled drowned eagle on the sand. Lovely! :) I was rather embarrassed that it seemed like EVERYONE on the beach saw my knock out!
After leaving, we went back to our Resort beach and played on the kayak. As we were down in the water, a lady told us of a turtle. We searched for him for a bit but never saw him. As we headed back many snorkelers told us of the sting ray. That was it, I HAD to snorkel. Afterall, I couldn't get more sick right?!?! So I quickly borrowed my mom's snorkel gear (she was out there snorkeling with my dad). I got to see the sting ray. It was amazing!! We got our snorkel gear and Ben and I snorkeled out in the bay until it was too dark to snorkel any longer. We saw all sorts of beautiful coral and fish. It was gorgeous! We also saw a crab in a conch shell and fish that looked exactly like sand. It was truly amazing.
We finished up the night by warming up in the hot tub then going to the room to pack. I had promised Katy we would try to go shopping and later that night we headed to Red Hook to see if anything was open to shop. It wasn't but we did get an ice cream cone and saw a fight go down between to Isalnders at the restaurant "Taco Hell". We headed back to the room to go to bed. It was so sad to know we had to get up early in the morning to leave.
Tuesday morning we got up super early and loaded 16 bags and 11 people in a Dodge Caravan. I will post the video of this on my blog. It was hilarious to see us all get out! We left at 6 am and got home after midnight (it was soooo cold our starter motor on our car was actually FROZEN and many prayers finally helped us get it started so we have a working car). We went from 75 degrees to 5 degrees in 1 day. Oh I miss that 70 degree difference.
Our vacation was a TRUE paradise vacation. I loved it. It was so relaxing and enjoyable. Everyone left looking forward and making plans to do this again next year! It was GREAT!!! I will post more pictures as I get more uploaded! For now, I am going to bed. See I came home and was REALLY sick when I got up. Went to the doctor and I have bronchial pneumonia and a sinus infection. I did decide I much preferred being sick in Paradise of St. Thomas and St. John than being sick in the cold of Utah!
Saturday, December 15, 2012
Promotions and life marching on...
I have been so busy that something had to give...and unfortunately it has been this blog.
Man sooooo much has happened over this last few months it is hard to put it all down.
First - I got the promotion at work (Lead in my department) and I am not a full time working mom :( Man that is hard to type. It is easier to live than I thought in some ways and much harder in others. I am truly blessed to work for the company I do and that I have some flexibility. I do love my new position and that is a HUGE bonus to having to go to work full time.
I have been reminded over and over and OVER again that our Father in Heaven is keenly aware of where we are at in life. If we ask and pray for a miracle, he will provide! My new position requires Saturday and Sunday work. Those are the only 2 days I get with my family. It has been really, really hard coming to terms with missing church EVERY SINGLE week for the unforseeable future.
Last week, I knelt in humble prayer and begged my Father in Heaven for a miracle. A way that I could attend church on Sunday, have a day with my family and still be able to work my job and help provide for our temporal needs. Within the week, everything at work changed and my work schedule went from working Wed-Sun to being 4 10's and working Mon, Tues, Fri, Sat from 0700-1730. This is only temporary for a few weeks however when it happened I distinctly remember thinking, "This is your miracle and more will come. You are being heard." My kids are off track during this time. This makes it that I am able to spend more days with them while also able to spend time with my family on Sundays and go to church. My prayers have been heard.
Christmas has hit full force and Ben and I are busy making beds for American Girl Dolls for Christmas. I am not sure I knew what I was undertaking when I started this!! I am super excited for these cute beds and it will be so fun Christmas morning watching the girls open up their presents from us.
Katy and Lyse are doing really well. Lyse has struggled a bit more than Katy with my full time work status. My heart hurts that more of her life she will know me working and working full time than she won't recall it. That is hard. Katy has been great about taking on the responsibilities needed and I am so impressed with the amazing girls I have been blessed to raise.
There have been sooo many times I have thought, "I need to write this down" and then I just haven't done it and I feel horrid to have lost so much of our history the last few months.
At the beginning of November, Grandma Great Hawker was diagnosed with Breast cancer. That was a shock wave through the family. We were able to go up and visit Grandpa and Grandma on Grandpa's birthday. I am so grateful we got that time with them. I love them more than I ever really express.
The first large snow fall in November happened to be the day we drove up to Idaho. We just did a day trip up so the Saturday after we were home. That day we spent the day working hard...PLAYING. Seriously, the entire day we played. We made HUGE snowmen, build snow forts and had a snowball fight with them. We went sledding and had hot chocolate. You name the winter adventure and we tried to do it that day! It was so much fun to just spend the entire day playing with our kids. I am so grateful we did it. The next day I could barely move! Who knew that playing in the snow would make you so sore!!! I will try to get Ben to post the snowman pictures up here soon. It was amazing and I am so grateful we spent the day just playing with our kids (we don't do that often enough).
Shay announced she is pregnant and I am excited to have a new niece/nephew this next summer. I love babies. I hope we get 1 more some day!
Ben's job had a scary bit with lots of lay offs the same day I started my new position. Once again, our Father in Heaven watching out for us. He was spared but I am hoping in the next bit he is able to get a better paying and more stable job. It feels like it is time.
We have had many fun and many tragic things happen in the world around us lately. I am grateful for my Savior and that we have temples for eternal families. I am so grateful for a loving Heavenly Father that truly is a God of miracles and provides them for my family daily.
Man sooooo much has happened over this last few months it is hard to put it all down.
First - I got the promotion at work (Lead in my department) and I am not a full time working mom :( Man that is hard to type. It is easier to live than I thought in some ways and much harder in others. I am truly blessed to work for the company I do and that I have some flexibility. I do love my new position and that is a HUGE bonus to having to go to work full time.
I have been reminded over and over and OVER again that our Father in Heaven is keenly aware of where we are at in life. If we ask and pray for a miracle, he will provide! My new position requires Saturday and Sunday work. Those are the only 2 days I get with my family. It has been really, really hard coming to terms with missing church EVERY SINGLE week for the unforseeable future.
Last week, I knelt in humble prayer and begged my Father in Heaven for a miracle. A way that I could attend church on Sunday, have a day with my family and still be able to work my job and help provide for our temporal needs. Within the week, everything at work changed and my work schedule went from working Wed-Sun to being 4 10's and working Mon, Tues, Fri, Sat from 0700-1730. This is only temporary for a few weeks however when it happened I distinctly remember thinking, "This is your miracle and more will come. You are being heard." My kids are off track during this time. This makes it that I am able to spend more days with them while also able to spend time with my family on Sundays and go to church. My prayers have been heard.
Christmas has hit full force and Ben and I are busy making beds for American Girl Dolls for Christmas. I am not sure I knew what I was undertaking when I started this!! I am super excited for these cute beds and it will be so fun Christmas morning watching the girls open up their presents from us.
Katy and Lyse are doing really well. Lyse has struggled a bit more than Katy with my full time work status. My heart hurts that more of her life she will know me working and working full time than she won't recall it. That is hard. Katy has been great about taking on the responsibilities needed and I am so impressed with the amazing girls I have been blessed to raise.
There have been sooo many times I have thought, "I need to write this down" and then I just haven't done it and I feel horrid to have lost so much of our history the last few months.
At the beginning of November, Grandma Great Hawker was diagnosed with Breast cancer. That was a shock wave through the family. We were able to go up and visit Grandpa and Grandma on Grandpa's birthday. I am so grateful we got that time with them. I love them more than I ever really express.
The first large snow fall in November happened to be the day we drove up to Idaho. We just did a day trip up so the Saturday after we were home. That day we spent the day working hard...PLAYING. Seriously, the entire day we played. We made HUGE snowmen, build snow forts and had a snowball fight with them. We went sledding and had hot chocolate. You name the winter adventure and we tried to do it that day! It was so much fun to just spend the entire day playing with our kids. I am so grateful we did it. The next day I could barely move! Who knew that playing in the snow would make you so sore!!! I will try to get Ben to post the snowman pictures up here soon. It was amazing and I am so grateful we spent the day just playing with our kids (we don't do that often enough).
Shay announced she is pregnant and I am excited to have a new niece/nephew this next summer. I love babies. I hope we get 1 more some day!
Ben's job had a scary bit with lots of lay offs the same day I started my new position. Once again, our Father in Heaven watching out for us. He was spared but I am hoping in the next bit he is able to get a better paying and more stable job. It feels like it is time.
We have had many fun and many tragic things happen in the world around us lately. I am grateful for my Savior and that we have temples for eternal families. I am so grateful for a loving Heavenly Father that truly is a God of miracles and provides them for my family daily.
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Disappeared
Where have I been?
Well torn between so many locations and not knowing where to go or how to get there would be the best answer to that!
I am overwhelmed, underwhelmed and in between.
I LOVE my new position at work. Oh how I wish I could do it part time. Tis not the case. It is a full time or not at all situation and that is a HARD pill to swallow.
My true love in life is being a mom, a homemaker, a wife. No the order in that is not the order of which is most important to me. I love being a wife and being there for my husband. That is not something I am often able to do lately with working full time. We finish dinner and I sit on the couch and I am sound asleep before I can even count to 10.
I miss the days of being home, planning dinner, making bread, cleaning house.
I miss the days of going on a field trip was the biggest plan for the day.
Today I was able to go on a field trip. My dad also had major heart surgery. I took off work and I have felt torn all day.
I wish I could just be a career woman at times. Alas, that is not where my heart is. I am being forced to be one due to our circumstances and I often want to sit and cry. I think of my babies, my husband, my time. I don't have energy to do more than work. My house while it is clean it is not spotless like I want/like.
I can't afford a maid. I can now say we barely survive each week. Survival financially is the reason for this situation.
No. I am not living an extravagant life. I am talking basics of food, house, utilities, car and gas. We now have the money to pay all those.
It takes a lot of money to run a family. More than I would have ever imagined.
My heart yearns for the simpler days of being just a "part time working mom". How sad is that?!? I think I remember typing that about being a part time working mom and wishing for the "stay at home mom" stage again. Oh and I have put on like 10 lbs....soooo annoyed. I don't have the time or energy to do much about it and that makes me even more frustrated and mad.
I have so much to be grateful for. I hope and pray that our Father in Heaven will lead and guide me to where we need to be. Help me find joy in what I do have, comfort from the pain of loss.
So here is to picking myself back up, brushing off the dirt from feeling knocked over, trampled on and kicked to the ground again. I will move forward. I will be a successful mom. I will still make it work. I will still have a forever family....because in the end that is all this life is about! I just hope my children see my sacrifice and understand why. I do this because I love their dad and them and it is what our family needs. I hope they can see it. I hope they don't begrudge it.
Well torn between so many locations and not knowing where to go or how to get there would be the best answer to that!
I am overwhelmed, underwhelmed and in between.
I LOVE my new position at work. Oh how I wish I could do it part time. Tis not the case. It is a full time or not at all situation and that is a HARD pill to swallow.
My true love in life is being a mom, a homemaker, a wife. No the order in that is not the order of which is most important to me. I love being a wife and being there for my husband. That is not something I am often able to do lately with working full time. We finish dinner and I sit on the couch and I am sound asleep before I can even count to 10.
I miss the days of being home, planning dinner, making bread, cleaning house.
I miss the days of going on a field trip was the biggest plan for the day.
Today I was able to go on a field trip. My dad also had major heart surgery. I took off work and I have felt torn all day.
I wish I could just be a career woman at times. Alas, that is not where my heart is. I am being forced to be one due to our circumstances and I often want to sit and cry. I think of my babies, my husband, my time. I don't have energy to do more than work. My house while it is clean it is not spotless like I want/like.
I can't afford a maid. I can now say we barely survive each week. Survival financially is the reason for this situation.
No. I am not living an extravagant life. I am talking basics of food, house, utilities, car and gas. We now have the money to pay all those.
It takes a lot of money to run a family. More than I would have ever imagined.
My heart yearns for the simpler days of being just a "part time working mom". How sad is that?!? I think I remember typing that about being a part time working mom and wishing for the "stay at home mom" stage again. Oh and I have put on like 10 lbs....soooo annoyed. I don't have the time or energy to do much about it and that makes me even more frustrated and mad.
I have so much to be grateful for. I hope and pray that our Father in Heaven will lead and guide me to where we need to be. Help me find joy in what I do have, comfort from the pain of loss.
So here is to picking myself back up, brushing off the dirt from feeling knocked over, trampled on and kicked to the ground again. I will move forward. I will be a successful mom. I will still make it work. I will still have a forever family....because in the end that is all this life is about! I just hope my children see my sacrifice and understand why. I do this because I love their dad and them and it is what our family needs. I hope they can see it. I hope they don't begrudge it.
Thursday, September 27, 2012
Disguised Blessings
Last Monday, a Temp position in my department as a Lead came through. I felt a very strong urge to apply. I worried about having to go full time and many other things but I felt like I needed to act on it. I called Ben and we chatted about it. I wrote the letter, sent it to Ben to read and then sent the letter in.
Wednesday afternoon I IMed my Supervisor verifying she had gotten the email. She told me they would be interviewing on Friday. I told her I could not do Friday but could do Thursday. Thursday morning came and I drove my hubby up to work the Ice Skating show we were working that weekend. I was not supposed to work on Thursday but when I got there I was asked to come back later. I had the day off work because my mom had fallen down the stairs and needed some help with my nephew. Anyway, things changed and I ended up not needing to help my mom and so I agreed to go work the show on Thursday.
Thursday at about noon I got a call from my supervisor asking me to come in at 1:30 for an interview. I was supposed to be at the show by 2:00 and the office and the show were only minutes apart so it all worked perfectly.
I went to the interview and then went to the show. They told me they would let me know on Friday. Friday night I got an email stating they needed 1 more day and they would contact us on Saturday. Saturday night I got a call asking me to be the new Temp Lead for The Queues Crew.
I was sooo scared of the what, when, where, why and how but KNEW it was right. I said yes and then they asked me to start Monday morning at 0700. Crazy!
Now a little back story. Thursday is our "payday" even though officially it is a Friday payday. Thursday night Ben's check was not direct deposited into our account. Friday night when we got home from the show at about 11:30 pm I checked the account and still no paycheck. Ben texted his boss and was informed Direct Deposit did not go out that week and paper checks would be issued. Ben could get his check Monday morning. STRESS!!! Seriously...lots and lots of stress.
Monday morning Ben went into work. He went to the office to get his check and was called in by HR manager. He was informed he would have a BUSY day because 25% of the company was being layed off. Ben's department of 1 paid off because he would be saved from lay off but many changes would come (such as no overtime which has been the 1 thing making it that we "made it" each month).
Monday morning I started my new temp position at Jetblue. I am working 16 hours more per week. Just what we need to make up for Ben's no overtime.
Coincidence?
I think not!!
I KNOW that this situation has been a HUGE blessing from the Lord. Even though going full time and working from the center had me stressed on how it would work, in the end it worked out BETTER for us. We would not make it had it not been for this little bump and nudge.
I am so grateful for the promptings from the Spirit from our loving Heavenly Father. He KNOWS us. He knows our needs. He cares about us and He wants us to succeed in life! Our lives have been richly blessed by that small prompting!
Monday morning was
Wednesday afternoon I IMed my Supervisor verifying she had gotten the email. She told me they would be interviewing on Friday. I told her I could not do Friday but could do Thursday. Thursday morning came and I drove my hubby up to work the Ice Skating show we were working that weekend. I was not supposed to work on Thursday but when I got there I was asked to come back later. I had the day off work because my mom had fallen down the stairs and needed some help with my nephew. Anyway, things changed and I ended up not needing to help my mom and so I agreed to go work the show on Thursday.
Thursday at about noon I got a call from my supervisor asking me to come in at 1:30 for an interview. I was supposed to be at the show by 2:00 and the office and the show were only minutes apart so it all worked perfectly.
I went to the interview and then went to the show. They told me they would let me know on Friday. Friday night I got an email stating they needed 1 more day and they would contact us on Saturday. Saturday night I got a call asking me to be the new Temp Lead for The Queues Crew.
I was sooo scared of the what, when, where, why and how but KNEW it was right. I said yes and then they asked me to start Monday morning at 0700. Crazy!
Now a little back story. Thursday is our "payday" even though officially it is a Friday payday. Thursday night Ben's check was not direct deposited into our account. Friday night when we got home from the show at about 11:30 pm I checked the account and still no paycheck. Ben texted his boss and was informed Direct Deposit did not go out that week and paper checks would be issued. Ben could get his check Monday morning. STRESS!!! Seriously...lots and lots of stress.
Monday morning Ben went into work. He went to the office to get his check and was called in by HR manager. He was informed he would have a BUSY day because 25% of the company was being layed off. Ben's department of 1 paid off because he would be saved from lay off but many changes would come (such as no overtime which has been the 1 thing making it that we "made it" each month).
Monday morning I started my new temp position at Jetblue. I am working 16 hours more per week. Just what we need to make up for Ben's no overtime.
Coincidence?
I think not!!
I KNOW that this situation has been a HUGE blessing from the Lord. Even though going full time and working from the center had me stressed on how it would work, in the end it worked out BETTER for us. We would not make it had it not been for this little bump and nudge.
I am so grateful for the promptings from the Spirit from our loving Heavenly Father. He KNOWS us. He knows our needs. He cares about us and He wants us to succeed in life! Our lives have been richly blessed by that small prompting!
Monday morning was
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