Monday, February 25, 2013

Musical thoughts


A word I hoped I would only use in my past.  Yet here it is again in my present and probably in my future as well.

The word haunts me and my body.

I am at my breaking point.

My body.

My house.

Everything is falling apart.

The words, "I need thee every hour" keep coming to my mind as I just keep thinking "what is in store for me?"  "is there a plan?"  "how much more do I have to endure before I see a bright spot?"

I have been racked over the coals and I wanted to come out shining like a diamond but I fear I will just be ash.

"Oh I need thee every hour oh Gracious Lord.  No tender love like thine can peace afford.  I need thee oh I need thee...oh bless me now my Savior I come to thee!"

Monday, February 4, 2013

Not typical

I have come to realize I am NOT the typical woman.  While I love cute purses, clothes, shoes, etc...I love MORE construction supplies.  I would MUCH rather shop at Home Depot, Lowe's or a home fixer up place than Macy's, Dillards or really any store in a mall.  I can't recall the last mall I walked in; however, Lowe's or Home Depot I beg Ben to take me to or go with me to weekly. 

Even when I don't have money I love walking the aisles and coming up with ideas of what I want and how I could make it.  Today is a day I would LOVE LOVE LOVE to have lots of extra money so I could go to Home Depot or Lowe's and get some lumber to help complete the storage closet downstairs.  I also have an AWESOME desk drawn up and can't wait for the money and my new work position to start so I have weekends to work with Ben on making it **Squeals**  (Yes I am that big of a nerd in it all!)

I started deep cleaning the girls room.  Lyse has had soooo much in her room she just can't keep it clean.  When your living space has too many things, you organize and remove.  That is just what I did in Lyse's room.  After cleaning for a bit, I found her dresser needed fixed.  Out came the hammer, screw driver and wood glue.  20 minutes later it was fixed and I was in heaven.  I LOVE fixing things.  I love re-finishing old.  I would have made a GREAT carpenter as a trade.  I would revel in going to work and creating something.

Now don't confuse this with the girly craftiness.  I am not very crafty at all.  If you want to know the truth, Ben is MUCH more crafty and creative with things like that then me.  I much prefer working with wood and creating something beautiful or something that helps organize. I feel productive when I make shelves or create something out of wood.

I look forward to having $40 to go and buy lumber to make my finish my closet downstairs, the shelves in the garage and I am sure I could come up with some other things needed as well.

I guess I am just not the typical girl cause I am the one begging Ben to start the next fun project!  Isn't Ben lucky?!?  :)