Today I had a great mommy moment. I got to do a VIP for my little Lyse. She is amazing! I love her more than anything and so getting to do a special poster just about her was WONDERFUL!
I often forget to see all the wonder, amazement and love that I have for my children. I focus on the day to day. I focus on the chores that need done, the homework that needs finished. Yes I bask in my love for them as they laugh and giggle. I revel in hearing complete joy in their voice and watching them dance with a child's joy.
I love my children...I truly do; however, I noticed that I too often overlook and don't get to see who my children truly are. It worries me that I have to think for a minute about personal character traits and seconds to tell of things that have happened in their life. I know being able to say important life events is important but the person coming from those events is so much more important.
Am I truly getting to know that person? Do I know what they are saying and who they are really becoming. Lately I have really worried that I am not seeing them, that I don't know the person coming from the events.
How can a good mother do that? This makes me seriously question my mothering and nuturing skills.
This next part is for me...what I need to type! I need to share what I see in my children, who they are becoming...not the events they are living!
My Elyse loves to give hugs. She loves to give kisses. She loves to show her love to others in any way she can. She adores family. Elyse loves animals and always has. Elyse has a huge passion for life. She loves surprising us by doing a chore all by herself then showing us it is done. The other day she cleaned her room entirely on her own...without any help or nudging from me or Ben. Elyse has so much love to give to not only herself but others! Listen to her for a day and you will see the love! The other day while giving my mom a hug she said, "Grandma why does it just feel so good when I hug you?" My heart melts thinking of that. My mom, my daughter...the immense love they share so that even a hug feels "so good"!
Elyse has immense faith and love for her Father in Heaven. I often wish I could have her faith. Her prayers are so thoughtful, so heartfelt. She always prays for others and she truly is concerned over them and how they are doing. Elyse loves to sing and often you will hear her burst into song...lately the favorite is "Child's Prayer" from the primary song book. She sings, "Heavenly Father are you really there and do you hear and answer every child's prayer" and I feel the Spirit come over me so strongly...yes, yes he does! He hears my prayers but I know He has to hear hers even more...based solely on her faith. If you want a prayer truly answered...Have Lyse offer the prayer. She seems to know what to ask and how to ask it in a way that when the prayer is answered you KNOW! Elyse has a love for her sister and wants to be like her. I am so grateful she has great role models.
Elyse is stubborn and I love that so much about her!
There is so much to Lyse it is hard to name it all. She is my ying and yang...hot and cold. One minute she can laugh until everyone is laughing...the next she can cry until she has everyone wanting to cry! What can I say, she is a great leader of emotions!
My Katy has joy in living. She is happy to be alive. She finds joy in the journey. Katy's happiness and joy in life is contagious. I love seeing her skip, laugh and just enjoy life!
Katy is a natural tease. Her dad helped instill her with the first bit of it and she just thrived and grew with it! She can instantly she a tease and follow pursuit in the same. At times she will tease me back and I am much slower in catching the teasing unfortunately. I love that she has a sense of humor and knows how to laugh!
Katy is an amazing friend, sister, daughter, person. She thinks of others always. She has a tender spot to see needs and try to help with those needs. Her heart is always seeing others and thinking of them. Katy would NEVER intentionally hurt someone...she loves them too much (even if they are a stranger)!
Katy is a dancer and great at it! Katy excels in wanting to be healthy. She wants to eat healthy, she want to get exercise...she wants to treat her body the way everyone should treat theirs - eating treats occasionally, eating healthy fruits and veggies all the time! Many times I have to tell her she can't eat more veggies, she needs to eat some meat and carbs! How many parents have to tell their children that?!?
Katy has a STRONG desire to do what is right. If she knows it is right she tries until she just honestly can't anymore to do the right thing. I am so grateful for her strong moral compass that many times has put me back on the straight and narrow path. Katy's life and Spirit shine so strong. I am grateful to a Father in Heaven that has given me a child so spiritually strong. She is ages older than me in Spirit!
thank you for allowing me this mommy moment. I needed it. I will add more I am sure but for now I am tired. My throat is BURNING and the medicine has kicked in enough to exhaust me but not take away the pain! Gotta love that!