I tried

It was scary.

I still did it.

Now the waiting begins.  I might hear back, I might not.  I might get it, I might not.  At least now I know that I did everything in my power to make it work.  I can say at least I tried. 

I hope and pray that I can and will continue to be lead and guided.  That I will know what is best for my family and I will be able to act in the best interest of my family.

I pray over and over that Heavenly Father will bless me in these endeavors.  I know He has to this point but my prayers need to continue.

I am so grateful for a merciful Father in Heaven.  I am grateful for my blessings.  Now more patience is being taught to me as I wait.