Sunday, July 29, 2012
Living vs. Surviving
I feel so alone.
Ben was out of town working this last weekend.
Every time I called my sister, she never answered. Katy had plans to do stuff with her but I never got in touch with her, she never really called back :(
My other friends I texted to get together and hang never responded.
I felt so alone all weekend. I hate that feeling. Each time I felt it I thought, "you have your girls and you always have prayer" but I PHYSICALLY needed another adult. That was hard.
I feel like a crap mom. I wish I could get out of this horrid funk I am in! I have NO energy and I right now I just have the mentality of please let me make it through the day...it's not living, it's surviving.
Life is hard, I know. Life is also a journey. A journey I am missing out on daily cause honestly each day I am just wanting and waiting for the day to just be over so I can go back to bed. That is no way to live life!