Positive

Staying positive in an internet based world can be hard at times.

I have DEFINITELY made my fair share of mistakes in airing dirty laundry for all to read.

I regret that.

I don't regret having aired the laundry as much as I regret not having stayed positive. Why did I let the negativity that can so EASILY be found on the internet affect me? Yes I had crappy things happen in my life at the times I posted those things. Yes I had the right to share those.

I guess what I regret is that by posting those many might think I am a negative person or hold grudges. The truth is I try hard to stay positive and not hold a grudge. I know of some that would disagree with that but I would just have to tell them sorry.

Feeling lost, not needed and unsure of your future brings the negativity in boat loads. I am trying to focus on the positive while at the same time my past mistakes have hit me in the face.

I am sorry for not staying positive. I am sorry for venting frustrations. Yes I have the right but just because I have the right to do something doesn't mean I will like the consequences of that.

I hope and pray that the Lord will continue to bless my family and our situation. In praying for that I feel the need to say, I am sorry! I am sorry if I have offended or hurt. I am sorry if I said something in anger.

I am working on improving. One step to improving is admitting you are not perfect and saying sorry for wrongs you have committed. I have committed a LOT of wrongs and honestly, I wish I wasn't so me at times!

I also try hard! I honestly never want to hurt anyone.

This blog was a fresh start. My last blog was lost to the wayside due to lack of funds to renew the name. This blog has new hopes and dreams. I hope it can also show growth. I want it to show improvement. I want it to be positive (not only for me but for any that might find it).

One positive step forward each day...that is my goal. I know it will not be easy always. This is a place to vent for me. I am hoping I can vent about my frustrations in unemployment, parenting, loving and living without offending those that read. I hope I can do this and maintain a happy positive environment! If at anytime you see me slip, please don't hesitate to let me know!