Insights into my soul

Today holds a lot of stress for me.

Many things I can't write about but oh so want to.

Money troubles.

Job troubles.

Extended Family having troubles.

It seems like troubles are all around.

Today instead of seeing the troubles (although I will admit they are weighing on me)...I have chosen to have my "burden lightened" through the Lord.

This morning my beautiful Elyse said one of the most heart felt loving prayers I have heard. She blessed so many and sincerely thought of all those she loved and prayed for them with all her heart. What a beautiful girl I have been blessed with!

Last night I was able to go to the temple with my eternal sweetheart. I am so grateful for him. I am grateful for the opportunity we had to be in the temple together. The Spirit was so strong and the warmth and feeling of the Spirit just made me smile. What a beautiful night it was. I needed it. I love the man I am married to. I love that he is trying every day to be the man that our Father in Heaven wants him to be. That brings my heart such joy I can not even describe it!

My beautiful Katy is such a good, strong worker. She helps and does! She has helped me do laundry and she cleaned a majority of her and Lyse's unbelievably dirty room. She was a trooper through it all and even smiled and laughed and excitedly made her bed. Not many mom's are blessed with a child that will clean while laughing. She just does what she is asked. She tries the hardest of most kids I know to just help and do what is right.

I am blessed as a wife and mother. I have a husband that strives to be better and help me along with him. He loves me and supports me. He is my true love and I am so grateful we have each other to walk through life with. I have amazing children that I love with all my heart. I have good children that laugh and smile and play with each other (and me).

The scripture of the day yesterday was Philippians 4: 11 it states, "Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be ^acontent."

I have really thought and pondered this a lot. I actually really encourage you to go read all of Philippians 4. It takes just a few minutes but such strong beautiful words.

I do not have all I want. My want list grows. Instead, though, I need to be content with what I have. I have my needs fulfilled and even if I lost my house, car and all my worldly possessions I KNOW I have family that would help care for me. My needs are fulfilled. My eternal family is the only thing that I truly need to know I have!

I want to one day be able to say with conviction that I have learned that in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content. Because honestly, all I have is today! If I am not content today until I have ... (fill in the blank) then I will never learn to be content. If I am content and happy with what I have, then I think you can really learn true happiness.

This is my current goal. Learn to be content and love TODAY with what I have TODAY. (No I am not going to stop dreaming but I am going to dream less and live today more) I am a worrier so it comes naturally but I am going to try and love what I have today but know that tomorrow will change but that is ok as long as I have the Lord and my family on my side.